Hey Guys! One of the most awesome things about living on an island, is getting a refreshing perspective on what makes you feel good without worrying about what everyone else thinks. So here’s my note out of the philosophizing diaries for thoughts to ponder.
Growing up through high school, as I’m sure everyone knows, can be a defining time in a girl’s life. I remember feeling a little out of place. I grew up in Australia but moved to The Philippines at 12. It was a challenging time since this is when a lot of changes in my body occurred (autoimmune condition started around this time as well). I was always battling weight, earlier on I kept losing too much weight when I didn’t want to, as I grew up, then the weight seemed to go the other way and I’d gain too much. I tried everything and still do to remain physically healthy. It’s been hard especially when the medicine I take stimulates hunger and encourages the body to have water retention especially around major joints like my knees. I was also always conscious about this thing called ‘moon face’ that prednisone is known to give patients after long term use.
This is why I am so thankful for my time on the islands. Where I felt accepted no matter what I looked like, where I found peace in being myself or even just ‘being’. I seem to talk about this a lot through all my blogs. But it’s true.
People can be say hurtful things without even knowing it. I had friends ask me what I was doing, since they had seen my body before the weight gain and automatically assumed it was because I was just being lazy or eating a lot. It was a lot to take to the ego especially as a teen. But I have learned that what people say about others sometimes says a lot more about themselves. They are just speaking from their own thoughts, ideas, beliefs etc. and don’t know the full story so they just assume and we all do that all day long.
I have learned to accept that and to just worry what I know is important and what isn’t. I let myself get caught up in the whole worrying about what everyone else thinks when I was younger, and being on the islands reminds me that it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks, what matters is how you feel about yourself, and from there the love for yourself will allow you to feel that true island vibin’.
What is island vibin’ you ask? It’s the confidence to dance with those hips leading you, it’s the ability to wear that bikini (you always felt nervous to wear) and just dive into the ocean full of freedom in your heart, it’s that fresh smile you give to others as you walk tall down the street. I love it when I meet women who embody this. They are truly beautiful. Someone who is full of passion for life, who isn’t afraid to be happy, who you know isn’t over thinking every little thing and is right there with you in the moment. Like they say “life be in it” it’s not meant to be watched from the sidelines. You’re given one lifetime (that is if you don’t believe in reincarnation but still…) do the best you can with it. Stop and smell the breeze, the fresh air, have the confidence to let go and sway to the beat of the song that gets you going.
I guess what I am trying to say from all this random rambling, is that you too can achieve that island flavour in your life. Have you ever been on holidays to an island or dreamt of going? What do you imagine to be like? Have you noticed that life seems a lot simpler there, that people are happy, they seem calm and ready to welcome you into their lives. This is why I use the ‘island vibin’ idea as a model for my everyday life, something that I can bring with me everywhere and lose myself in from time to time. So what is it that reminds you of who you really are? Something you can relate to and make you feel the confidence to follow your dreams or to just feel happy? I hope you have a form of island vibin’ in your life, express yourself for who you truly are and you’ll find you’ll be a lot happier for it 🙂