The following is my first entry to what I’d like to call the ‘Philosophizing Diaries’. In these blog posts, I post questions and ideas to what I believe is thought provoking and interesting. Please read each post from start to finish before raising any comments, I do not intend to offend anybody in any way and simply pose these questions to get people thinking. I hope you enjoy my first entry and start you thinking about what you think on the subject matter. Everyone has there own personal opinions. This is merely my reflection. Apologies as many of my thoughts are jumbled -Lariana xoxo
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Many people ask me what I believe in. I am a Christian, being that I believe in the basic teachings of what it is to be one. Thou shall not kill, thou shall not steal, commit adultery etc. I believe that there is a being that encompasses Love. Because to me, everything in life comes down to love. Even hate, sad to say. Because for love we will do anything. Wherever we believe it can be found. When we don’t experience it from the kindest of places, we search for it elsewhere. And I don’t mean just romantic love (although man has been driven to commit crazy acts for it) I mean love in any shape or form, in its purest essence, its meaning, its feeling.
I also consider myself a universalist. While I do believe there is a god, higher power or whatever it is you may call it, I am also doubtful that any one religion which is an amalgam of human created beliefs should be claimed as the one and only truth.
I see it like this, all over the world there are numerous religions. We are born into society with different beliefs as we grow up. So how can one be ‘damned to hell’ as such, for not worshipping a god that one has not even heard of? Shall we be judged by our actions in life? Of showing love and kindness? As the saying goes ‘I am only human’ we will have, like everyone else, our moments of weakness but it is our actions in reaction to these that will define our moral fiber.
We are all searching for that higher truth, something to make us feel full, have meaning in a world where if we think hard enough we realize our lives are of little significance to the bigger picture. We find it in many ways. Some in religion. Others in burying themselves so deep into the fabric that society weaves around us that we make ourselves forget to ask questions like where we come from? and why this all exists? Which if spent too long on become a conundrum we cannot face or as some would say a waste of time. But yet, done sparingly doesn’t it readjust your focus and bring you down to earth? Think about it, you’re worrying about that broker who did you wrong, or that girl in class that is such a ‘bitch’ and then you start thinking about the ‘bigger picture’ and once again are brought back down to what this all really about. And what is it?
And that is what brings me to my blog post today. Existentialism. Or maybe something like it in my own words ‘The Zoom Out Effect’. Spending time to look at life from the bigger picture. Having meaninglessness and everythingness at the same time as a feeling towards life. An individual perspective.
I lie on my back and close my eyes. There are rushing images. My life flashes by me. And yet I zoom out even more. I see my country. The news headlines. I zoom out even more. I see the past, history in the making, text book lines of lives that have little meaning to me now and at the same time make up everything I see today. I zoom out even more. I’m in space, I see constellations of stars, black holes and even planets made entirely out of diamonds. I am very small. I am nothing. But I am everything. I am undefined. Unknowing. Each of us are not even a grain of sand in comparison to the universe. But in my own space and time, I am in charge of seeing to it that I make my world the best I can. I believe in the higher power. I see how trivial the small things matter. I am part of something much bigger than myself. I question. I stop and breathe. I do not know why I am here. Are there lessons to be learned? All I know is that I am here and I will do my best. That is my personal truth. That my friends, is how I experience the Zoom Out Effect. Back to reality. It seems somewhat sad but it is also a hopeful outlook in life. It puts things back into perspective. Should we hide from the truth that we just don’t know? Can we accept this? How can we have hatred for men of another religion, for they too are finding something to believe in, to hold on to.
Regardless of what you believe, whether you are Christian, Buddhist, Hindu etc. I believe we can all find our personal truths in these religions, no one is wrong, because everyone is trying to explain or find the same thing. In the zoom out effect, we are not trying to deprive the power of religion, but merely remember that life has a much bigger picture. We can be selfish in our thinking, these thoughts are too mystifying for any person to try to understand. And in that, believe in what you can, believe in the power of love as it is energy, find your truth in how you coexist in society. Be kind to one another regardless of who you are, where you live and what you do.