“Aurelie! Get up! We’ve got to get going” I can hear my mama’s voice in the distance, I think I’m half asleep.
Just 5 more minutes…
“Probudit se!” she calls out in Czech and her voice is suddenly much louder and I instantly feel cold, she’s grabbed my blanket off of me.
“Mama! 5 minutes!” I shout back, attempting to grab the blanket back.
“Ne! Come one you don’t want to miss your audition!” I hear her voice already out in the hallway and she’s already taken my blanket, damnit! She’s right though, I really should get up.
It’s my first audition for the community musical ensemble and I’ve been practicing for months.
My brother Antonin tells me he’s already memorized all the words to the song list because I’ve practiced them so much – a shame since I can’t seem to remember all of them.
I get up, brush my teeth and head out to have breakfast in our kitchen.
Mama looks beautiful as always, even while scowling at me.
“You’re up an hour late, I’m not going to remind you every time you know” she says in a firm voice.
I know she’s not really angry at me though, my favourite breakfast of French toast and chocolate milk await me on the breakfast nook table.
“You know it only takes me 5 minutes to get out of bed and downstairs Mama”.
“I think she means more than your breakfast dear” my Dad says as he enters the kitchen pressing a chaste kiss to my Mama’s cheek.
They’ve always been affectionate and while us kids always groan when we see this, seeing and knowing how much they love each other always makes me happy, but you won’t see me admit that aloud.
No teenager will admit that.
“New hairstyle?” he asks as he sits down at the head of table and looks for the newspaper.
Mama knows him well and already grabs it off the magazine rack (where it belongs as she always says) and puts it in front of him.
I look at my hair in the mirror behind the sink.
Oh my god! I forgot to brush it and we’ve really got to get going.
“I’ll fix it on the way” I say and run upstairs to put the audition dress my Mama and I picked out last week, it’s green and brings out my eyes as the lady at the boutique said.
Mama is shaking her head as I run downstairs.
“Forgetting something?” she appraises me up and down.
I look down and realize I’m not wearing any stockings (a requirement for the audition).
“Ugh!” I run back up and grab some stockings.
I can hear dad laughing and murmuring “She’s always like this don’t worry, you’ll make it”.
Mama is just making random high pitched sounds as she always does when she gets frustrated, it’s a weird little habit she has but it’s so cute.
“Mama! Ready let’s go!” I call, already at the front door and putting on some black, shiny shoes.
* * * * *
“Aurelie Bell” my name is called out and I feel frozen.
“Aurelie Bell!” I find myself canter stage in a hall twice as big as the one at my highschool.
“Yes sir, my name is Aurelie Bell” I stutter out.
“You’ve prepared a song from the set list?”
“Yes sir, somewhere over the rainbow”
“Do you know twinkle, twinkle little star?”
“Excuse me sir?”
“Please sing, whenever you are ready” says a voice in the darkness.
There are three people on the panel today but I can’t see them from on stage, the lights are too bright shining down on me and the back of the theatre is pitch black.
It sounds like there are other people in the room, perhaps other ensemble cast members?
I take a big breath and sing.
I forgot the words.
To probably the easiest song and lyrics to remember.
I couldn’t believe it.
The panel didn’t say anything after my appalling audition.
They didn’t need to.
I was ushered off stage and that was how my first and last audition for the community musical ensemble went.